What happens when faith becomes blind?

What happens when faith becomes blind?

I often think back to the beginning of this journey which actually began in 2009, when I decided to go to college. I was very nervous. Every time I went to class I was shaking. I handed in my essays and my instructor would ask me if everything was okay because I was shaking in fear. I was afraid of not being able to write, that my paper was not entertaining. I always received an "A" but that was the most stressful "A" and then I began to relax and write understanding that I could. I began to have fun going to school and sitting in a class surrounded by people who were a good 20 years younger. There were a few others who had decided to take a chance on going to school later in life but we were always surrounded by younger people.

I remember being a young person in college and not really caring about school. I was burnt out. I had no idea what I wanted to do except that I took a drama class and it changed my life. I read a play that was written by Eugene O'Neill titled The Hairy Ape and I never forgot that play. I think it was then that I felt a familiarity to words and how they can move readers.

I knew I enjoyed writing and creating sentences using words that play around each other and linger. I enjoy writing poetry and creating stories. I never realized that my first public written work would be about me and faith. Writing is the one thing that cannot be taken away from me and it kind of kick started my desire to want to see how I could use writing to earn a living. I started my step of faith in 2009 with only a couple of known facts, I enjoy reading and writing. I did not know if this would lead me to a career in writing but I wanted to change my career path and explore the possibilities. I never would have thought this one little step would take me to where I am today.

I am now on this journey walking blindly into each day. I will begin to write about what each day gives to me because when I settle my nerves from fear I am able to see such amazing beauty that is surrounding me. I am able to recognize amazing people and experience things I would have never experienced had I not taken that step of faith and kept walking.

Today, I have a roof over my head. Today, I have food to eat. Today, I have my dogs. Today, I even had an interview with a staffing agency. I am learning to live one day at a time. I am learning that this part of my journey is being directed and guided for me as I walk blindly.

Thank you for following along with me on this new leg of my journey.